Day 97

Zero day in Chester

Total - 1332.8

Caleb and I had been having strongly toned conversations the couple days before this if we should stay a zero or leave for the trailhead at the end of the day and not do any miles. Quickly it changed once in town to do a full zero. We hadn’t had one since South Lake Tahoe which was just under 300 miles ago. Caleb planned to sleep in, which at first didn’t know how the hell he was gonna do that as we are so accustomed to waking up early. He had a plan to wake up, smoke a roach, and then go back to sleep which is exactly what he did. I heard him wake up at 5:15, cough a bunch, and didn’t hear him until 8:30. Truly impressive as I sat on my deflated pad scrolling Instagram and waiting for things to load. We had a super eventful day of just getting fat in town food. We hit up breakfast first where I got a fat breakfast burrito. It was cash only restaurant so I had to use the atm annoyingly. We then headed to grocery outlet where we resupplied a lil without looking at what we had left so tomorrow we will have to fill in the gaps. After lounging around in the park until 12, Caleb and I heard to the library for an hour to charge everything. Ben from Boston got into town but didn’t want pizza factory so we went over there anyway without him lol and mucked a huge pizza. BBQ chicken might be my favorite pizza now. I was so messy though and all the cheese kept falling off making me look real adult. We then had to face reality and do chores. Laundry was first which intially didn’t go well as the machine failed but luckily a worker gave us more coins to try another one. We in the mean time got strawberry shakes with REAL strawberries in it making it so good. A dad and huge family was there in line wearing a “I’m with stupid” shirt which was giving me a real giggle as he was always standing next to a 2 foot nothing lil kid. Probably deserved it honestly. We then chilled outside the laundry mat waiting for our stuff to be done. After we headed back to the park where I took a 30 minute nap and then lounged around before getting convinced to go out to dinner at the same place as yesterday. I got garlic edamame as I wasn’t too hungry.

I really need to just stop looking at FarOut while on zeros as it gives me so much stress. I truly just need to put the fucking app down. My biggest thing out here is timing. Before this, time gave me so much anxiety as most people know and out here I would say the same thing. Not worried about water, fires, closures, or anything I should actually be worried about. Instead, I get to stress about something that physically does not matter out here as I have literally nothing going on after this adventure. So today I was stressed about getting to Medford on time so I calculated how many miles we would have to do a day to get there by the third so we could head to Vegas for Marc’s wedding. Caleb calculated it yesterday and then today I got a different number so I called him out but I was in the wrong as I forgot to subtract the miles we would skip for the fire closure. Caleb and I are cut from the same pie where we do react first with a tone. So he reacted and I reacted back. I got really hurt by it as he knows time is the biggest thing for me as I have expressed it. I didn’t need to react like that especially since I was wrong. So I ran to the bathroom, cried and when I came out he asked me what was wrong and I cried to him and Ben from Boston in the restaurant right before paying. So embarrassing but I just expressed that I know I was wrong and that I know I’m stressing over something so stupid but I just can’t help it. I just need him to say “I know why you are stressed but everything will be okay” instead of asking why I’m stressed. We talked it out which was nice and then I was fine. So embarrassing though. I am about to start my period so normally it wouldn’t bother me as much but today the situation just hit home too much.

After that fun stuff, we grabbed a blunt from the smoke shop and headed back to our home at the park. I bought 2 in 1 at the store and since everyone was saying the showers sucked, we washed our hair in a spigot at the park. A true low for me. I am encompassing true hiker trash aka hobo. We swung on the swings for a lil before smoking. The mosquitos got too bad so I ran to my tent. It was getting late anyway and I’m ready to sleep my lil heart out.